My wire-threaded claws are attached to the door, but
Out-in, out-in, out-in, out-in.
Cu, says one.
Coo, says the other.
But actually that’s me. i’m the cuckoo, so it has to be me.
The song is greater than the parts.
That’s not next. Not next at all. Is it the clock’s movement that’s unhinged? The whirring works beneath my perch. Or time’s elbow, slicing through
He used to wind his finger around the air beside his ear. His lips didn’t need to shape the word, but they did. Cuckoo. Always after i said no to sixty-nine.
Sixty-nine disgusts me.
Before the wooden door locks me in again, i check the room. Floor, walls, window. All still where you’d expect.
Does that make me less anxious, or more?
The eleventh hour, ripped from the tenth and twelfth.
After eleven out-ins,
followed by eleven
Even my hair hangs exhausted.
Not hair. Feathers feathers feathers. Yellow-painted wooden feathers. i was carved from the heart of the Black Forest. A leprechaun in green felt cap whistled as he worked.
Is this his master plan? The master clockmaker’s? Wheezing away in his workshop-in-the-sky. Toggling cogs, twangling pulleys.
For I thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children.
She’s on the edge of the bed. Naked. She’ll catch her death. It’s a disgrace. You should -.
The voice of an iron pinecone dropping down, down. Beneath the eye. Bulging in the peep-hole.
If the eye were i and i, the eye.
I’d like to see it pop out and in and out and. Seven times, for luck.
And in and out and.
In the whole universe of eyes, why that
My seventh birthday.
Clean yourself up.
The eyes of the Lord are in every place, beholding the evil and the good. i whisper it.
A slap. More red among the running red.
Clean yourself up.
But the eye says i’m unclean for all eternity.
Three’s half of six. Three threes are nine. Always after
The stranger who watches me. Father never daughter’d me, and yet:
Keep an eye on her, son.
Oh, he does.
His red-painted lips carve
Lock in key.
i try bread crumbs, i try moon-pebbles, but i can’t find my way back. To the time before.
My nine lives taken before the nine-candled cake glows the winter window. But not one of the nine lights me back.
Three fives are fifteen. Fifteen is when i tried. First. Tying the bedsheets around the light. Crash. Tangled in bronze chain links. But alive. So they sent me into the cuckoo clock.
Here is the church,
and here is the steeple;
Her smile gets into everything. As her white hands wiggle into a church, her smile slides from her moving mouth into her dark curls. Cups every word as if it were the first, the only.
It is the only. Memory. Sun-enclosed, on her lap. My fingers flying in and out of her church like lost birds.
It’s the sign. To leave the clock case, once and for. i don’t fear it. So often i’ve riffled death’s feathers.
But it’s not easy here. Barred window, no sharps.
i could be the strokes. Of twelve. On the hard floor. Up-down, not out-in.
It sounds like a drum-roll. A fanfare for my finale. All the feet. An army, maybe twelve. Coming for to carry me …
Fly, wooden feathers. Out of the black forest, into the blue empty of -.
Faye Brinsmead lives in Canberra, Australia. A lawyer by day, she writes short fictions in all the snippets of time she can find. Recent work appears or is forthcoming in MoonPark Review, Reflex Fiction, the Cabinet of Heed, and r.kv.ry quarterly literary journal.